Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Stylish Blogger Awards

The absolutely gorgeous Kitty Cate has nominated me for a Stylish Blogger Award!!!
So I've been sitting on the lounge, watching Judge Judy trying to think of seven interesting facts about myself. (I'm now watching The Bold And The Beautiful. Thats how long I've been trying to come up with something interesting about myself, times seven.)

1. I buy way too many clothes. I still have clothes in bags, and with tags still attached, trying to think of a perfect occasion to wear the clothes, and then go and buy more new clothes. It's the same with shoes. It's an evil addiction, but it's better then drugs.

2. I love tea of all sorts. Iced tea. Hot tea. Tea in mugs. Tea in cups. Buying tea. Making my own tea. Tea cups. Tea pots. Tea pot cosies. Flavoured tea. Traditional tea. I love opening the cupboard in the kitchen with all the boxes of tea bags and smelling the aroma. Im jealous of Ramona Flowers tea collection. Every time I'm in Sydney, I go to T2, and try the tea they are sampling that day, and smell all the pots of tea, and usually end up buying a new box of tea.

3. I'm an accident waiting to happen. I've broken my right wrist in the same place twice. I've broken my left wrist once. I've broken a finger or two, and a toe. I've cracked my nose. I'm always spraining and straining muscles. I think I look weird when I don't have at least one bruise somewhere on my body. There is an assortment of ice packs and ice bricks in my freezer, awaiting an injury. I have an assortment of different sized bandages, awaiting an injury. 

4. I love collections. I have a fairy collection, an owl collection, a shoe box collection, a lipgloss collection and a nail polish collection. I also collect wine corks for my cat, as she finds them more exciting to play with then the expensive cat toys my mum and I buy her.

5. When I get a house of my own, I want to have an extra room to turn into a library. I want to fill the room with lots of massive bookshelves and a few comfy chairs and a soft rug. I love reading. I love books. I love going into bookshops. I love the smell of new books. I love the smell of some old books. I love how I can escape my life, and enter someone elses life in a story. I love reading about other peoples lives and experiences. 

6. I dance alot. I dance in shops when good songs come on. I dance in the street, and on the beach and in parks. I dance at work. I go out with friends and dance the night away. I dance on the walk home.
I was in the dance group in primary school. I did Irish dancing for four years. I've done jazz and hip hop. I'm now into my second year of pole dancing. 
Its the excitement of getting dressed up and doing your hair and makeup and performing in front of an audience. Its about having fun and getting fit and toned at the same time. Its about making new friends. Its about learning new things.

7. Im scared of thunder storms and ducks. When I was younger, I went for a bike ride, and my mum walked with me. on the way home, it started storming, and I freaked out and started screaming and crying. My mum had to carry me, and my bike home. Im now nearly 24, and Im still scared of storms. I no longer scream and cry, but I jump and freak out, and if Im in bed, I will hide under the blankets.
When I was three, I was at the Botanic Gardens, when a duck bit me on the bum. Ever since then, I've been scared of ducks. Its a ridiculous thing to be scared of, as they are rather cute, but I don't always see them as being cute. I see them as attackers. When I was in high school, I actually ran away from a duck that quacked in my direction. Everyone laughed at me, but I was safe inside, and away from the duck. I still don't go near ducks. But I do love chickens, and would love a pet chicken or two.



Now to nominate others for the award! Most of my fave blogs I read, haven't had a new post for quite a months, so I won't be nominating 15.

Panic Attack Disorder

So I got diagnosed with having a panic attack disorder a about a year and a half ago. I had my first panic attack on January 11 2007, had a few more that same year, then started having them quite frequently from about March 2009. I then started seeing a psychologist who helped me overcome my panic attacks, and it helped. I've barely had a panic attack since finishing up my therapy with her, and can go through situations where I know I would have had a panic attack, if I hadn't had therapy. I'm quite proud of myself for living without the fear of having a panic attack every day.

The reason I first started having panic attacks was from being in a car accident. After getting surgery from an injury relating to the car accident, and being told the surgery didn't work, and I would be in pain/have numbness in my hip and thigh for the rest of my life, I started having panic attacks in cars and on buses. And seeing people run across busy roads and nearly being hit by cars. And hearing cars slam on their brakes on beep their horns. And seeing car accidents in movies and on TV shows.

Therapy really helped, and I can safely go in cars without freaking out if Im going to have a panic attack. I can go on long car rides, and not be holding onto the door handle or car seat for dear life. It's made life alot easier for me. (I'm still yet to drive through the site of the accident, and I'm still yet to get my Ls and learn to drive, but that is something Im slowly working on. Ill be happy if I can live my entire life, without the need to drive. Im fine with walking everywhere, or catching the bus or train, as I no longer have panic attacks on buses.)

I had a panic attack today. There was no cars around. I was walking down the street. I was reading a letter. I got exciting news. Really really really exciting news. I had a panic attack. My hands were shaking. I could feel my heart racing. I started breathing faster. My legs felt a little weak. I had to stop walking for a few minutes. I never knew such great news could cause a panic attack.

The car accident was the fault of another driver. A drunk driver. I've never liked drunk drivers, but now I have more dislike to anyone who drives under the influence, and am often standing on my soapbox, saying why people shouldn't drink and drive, but that is a story for another day.
As the accident was the cause of another (extremely irresponsible) person, I have been seeing a solicitor (and a barrister and multiple doctors), since 2007 to get compensation.

Previously, I've been offered $5,500, then after surgery, it went up considerably, but not enough to make my solicitor happy.

After having an awful year last year, and seeing many more doctors which had been appointed by NRMA and my solicitor, I got a letter this morning from my solicitor. NRMA have offered me $140, 000. Which would net me approximately $80, 000 clear of Centrelink, and clear of costs and medical expenses. 

THATS ALOT OF MONEY!!!

My solicitor was trying to get an amount which would give me $10, 000 clear of Centrelink and other expenses.

So I had a panic attack. In the middle of my street. Not from fear, but from excitement.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

summer/no holidays

I was supposed to leave for Adelaide this Friday.
Instead im apartment/cat sitting, and hopefully working a shift or two.

At least I don't have to miss out on a week or of dance.
But I will miss out on seeing family.

Friday, January 7, 2011

2011

A New Year
Again.

I have a few wishes for myself for this year. I don't think all of them will happen, but it can be good to dream.

-Get better, and become more stronger and confidant in dancing. Also to perform in a show or two
-Keep my job. If I don't get to keep my job, I hope I get one within the next 3-6 months. (Because being unemployed for a long period of time sucks.)
-Stay out of hospital! (Lets just ignore Wednesdays stint in emergency, awaiting blood tests and getting IV fluids. At least I didn't have to stay over night.)
-No long term injuries
-Keep going to the gym regularly
-Eat healthy 
-Start doing Zumba?
-Go overseas


Wish me luck!