I think I ruin everything good that happens. I push people away when I need them the most. I don't take much needed advice. I end up failing at everything. The people that do appear to listen and care, I somehow push them away, and in the end, they no longer want to talk to me. I don't know how to say sorry.

I wish I could go back 18months, and re-do everything.

I would have listened more. I would have taken the advice I needed. I would not have failed. I would still be talking to those people.

There would be no regrets, as there are so many regrets from last year.

I feel a little invisible again.

As usual, I'll re-appear when I'm ready.

sunshowers

I was set on going for a run today, but have stayed inside all day due to crappy weather. It's been raining on and off all day, and you can't run in the rain. You might get wet, or even more worse, slip over. Knowing me, if I were to slip over, I will do serious injury, and I'm having enough troubles with my kidney, and don't want to add weather inflicted sports injury to the equation of all my current medical woes.

I was just thinking, 'awesome, the rain has has, the sun is shining', till I looked out the door and it was only a sunshower. It was pretty, till just then, when the sun went away, and the rain started pouring down again.

I will have to go for my run on Wednesday, when I get home from Sydney after seeing a urologist (which I'm really not looking forward to).

Two Hundred Sit Ups Challenge

I started this last night.

According to the site, I will be able to complete 200 consecutive sit ups in six weeks.

I completed Day 1, Week 1 last night. 6 Weeks and 2 days, and I will be powering through 200 sit ups when ever I feel the need.

Easter Sunday

Easter. The day of chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. Unlike nearly every other girl, I'm not the hugest fan of chocolate, so I'm not really the hugest fan of Easter. But the long weekends can be good, so I don't complain.

My Easter was pretty good. I went out for dinner Friday night, had a few drinks. Was a good night. Saturday was very relaxed. Chilled out around the house. Realised I didn't have the main ingredient for the muffins I was planning on making on Sunday, so walked to Woonona shops to buy a few things, then came home, and chilled out some more. Sunday I went to my mums and made muffins. Or mini carrot cakes. Whatever you call them, they tasted great!

Muffin batter. Doesn't look very enticing here, but it tasted good (I always have a try of the batter before it gets cooked.)

The muffins are cooked to perfection!

All iced and ready to eat.

The Easter Bunny also visited me a few times.

moving day part 2

All my furniture has now been moved, and I spent the first night in my new house. No monsters, so I will happily be sleeping here again tonight.

Now comes the fun part, finding a place to put everything. Since I'm busy today, I will do all of that tomorrow.

moving day part 1

All my dresses and jeans, shoes, make up, hair accessories, books and CDs and DVDs are gone. Basically everything that is not furniture is gone. (Except for some food, and kitchenware, and toiletries.)

I'll move everything else tomorrow.