Day 22

A Website

Im not sure if this is going to be obvious, but Im going to put www.facebook.com - I visit this website quite often. Also, www.twitter.com - only as I have these websites with unlimited access on my phone. Makes waiting for buses a lot less boring.

And do like blogs. Good blogs. Interesting blogs. Food blogs.

Day 21

A Recipe

I haven't cooked a proper meal for months. And I mean months. I love cooking. I miss cooking. I actually cried watching Masterchef earlier this year, watching everyone cook, and knowing I couldn't currently cook. It actually hurt.

Last night I cooked some pasta with peas, corn and a jar of baby food (shut up, I'm on a pretty restricted diet, and my stomach can't handle most foods - baby food is do-able right now.)

I've been making a lot of smoothies for breakfast - when I can actually eat breakfast.

Breakfast Smoothie Recipes:

-Banana, LSA, vanilla ice cream or Jalna vanilla yogurt, frozen mixed berries and cinnamon.

-As above, but replace mixed berries with fresh passionfruit

-As first recipe, but replace mixed berries with cherries, frozen or fresh

I love smoothies. I love living near north beach, as North Kiosk is there, and omg, their smoothies and frappes are amazing!!! So is their chai lattes. And bircher muesli. 

Day 20

A Hobby Of Mine

I love hobbies. I have lots of hobbies. Some of these hobbies can be turned into talents, I guess...

-pole dancing; I started pole in January this year, and it is amazing. I love it so much. I had to give it up for three months when I hurt my back, which sucked, but Im back at it and it feels great.
-knitting; I used to knit all my barbie dolls blankets when I was younger, then completely gave up knitting till this year, and now I love it and knit every day.
-reading; I feel weird if Im not currently reading a book. I've been reading for so long, and was in the top 10% of readers in the state when I was in primary school, which was fun. I got to go to these workshops and help professionals develop a program to help kids who couldn't read as well.
-baking; I love baking for friends and family, and am constantly getting new recipes and lusting after cookbooks and reading food blogs.
-art and photography; I love painting, and taking photos. I also like to draw, but to be honest, I am a crap drawer, so I don't do it often, and when I do, I generally don't show people.

Day 19

A Talent Of Mine

I'm really not sure if I have any talents. This is a little sad :(

I can roll my tongue and flex my toes. I've been told that not everyone can flex their toes apart.

My fingers are also really flexible. Not so much of a talent, more of a weird thing that my fingers can do. They bend in all which directions, pretty much. 

I need to find a talent!!!

Day 18

Whatever Tickles My Fancy

So I've got a form of anorexia, and it sucks. Don't tell me I'm stupid, or I'm looking for attention by depriving myself of food. I'm not doing this on purpose, or because I think I'm fat. Because I'm not. I look at people eating and I get jealous. Green with envy. I've gotten anorexia because I literally could not eat for 7 weeks. The sight of food made me nauseas. The smell of food made me nauseas. Whenever mum cooked dinner, I would retch from the smell of it. I hated it. It was awful.

None of my clothes fit me like they used to. I've lost most of my confidence. I've lost most of my self esteem. I don't want to go out. I feel the cold down to my bones.

It's not stupid. I'm not being stupid. I'm just being sick. Kidney infections suck. They do some awful things to the body - such as making you lose your appetite for 7 weeks and not be able to eat.

I'm slowly eating again. Lots of bland foods, noodles and pasta and rice, cheese, baby food, banana smoothies, tofu. Most times when I eat, I get awful stomach pain. I've got acid reflux something awful, and can taste vomit/stomach acid in the back of my throat. It is awful. I seriously don't know why people put themselves through anorexia. If you think you're fat, there are much better ways to lose weight than to deprive yourself of food. I know. I put on weight once, and felt awful. I started eating healthier, and portion control. I started drinking lots of water, and stopped drinking juice. I started going for walks - in an exercise way. I swam when the weather was good. I started going to the gym. I lost weight and toned up and lost centimeters from my body. My clothes fit me better. Clothes got too big for me and I had to get them taken in. I still indulged in hungover McDonalds and still baked cakes and cookies and anything else I wanted to bake. And it was so much better than depriving myself of food and not eating for days, weeks or months on end. I hope I never completely lose my appetite again. This is absolute awful.

I just want to be able to eat normally again, without feeling sick or having the worst pains in my stomach. I want to stop tasting vomit at the back of my throat. I want to stop having acid reflux all the time.

I just want to get better.

Day 17

An Art Piece

*Taken from www.deviantart.com

There's something kind of magical about this photo. I don't know what it is, but I've always like photos of birds and birdcages. I like birdcages in general. I love old fashioned, antique birdcages. I think they are gorgeous. (Until I see the pricetag). One day I would like to own an antique birdcage, and just have it filled with candles.

Day 16

A Song That Makes Me Cry

Without a doubt, Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. The movie the song comes from, City Of Angels, also makes me cry. Such a sad/good movie.

I really can't think of any more songs off the top of my head that make me sad/cry, so I'll just stick with that one song.

Day 15

A Fanfic Day

So I just had to google this, as I had no idea what fanfic was. I now know what fanfic is, and Im pretty certain I don't know any, so Im going to the next now.

Day 14

A Non-Fictional Book

Straight off the top of my head, my favourite non-fiction book is definitely Dewey - The Small Town Library Cat by Vicky Myron. I remember reading the end of this book, and I had tears in my eyes it was so sad, and I was nearly late for work experience, so I had to put the book down mid chapter, and was hanging out for the end of the day so I could rush home and finish the book. It was such a good book.

For some reason, the majority of the non-fiction books I read are about cats... I like cats, I like stories about cats.

Other non-fiction books I have enjoyed (about cats, and not about cats):

-Cleo - How An Uppity Cat Helped Heal A Family by Helen Brown Gentry

-Making The Rounds With Oscar by David Dosa

-Almost French by Sarah Turnball

-My Horizontal Life by Chelsea Handler

Day 13

A Fictional Book

Right now, I'm currently reading My Name Is Memory by Ann Brashares. So far it's a decent book. I expect I'll be finished it by the weekend, or Monday at the latest.

My favourite series of fictional books is definitely the Harry Potterseries. I've read the books so many times, but I still cry when characters get killed off. (And I'm hanging out for the final installments of the movies.)

Other fictional books I've enjoyed have been

-Saving Francesca by Melina Marchetta

-Looking For Alibrandi by Melina Marchetta

-Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris

And one of my all time favourite books, one that I read nearly every year is:

-The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold