the worst thing about renal ultrasounds

Is you constantly have to hold your breath. 

But the gel was warm today. Which was a bonus, considering the colder weather is starting to become more evident.

I'm moving to Woonona

I'm actually looking forward to it, as the house is AMAZING!!!

I'm going to be living with one of my mums friends, and two of her kids (her other kids live elsewhere.) My new bedroom is awesome, it has a little balcony, and a built in wardrobe. The bathroom is massive and has a spa. There is multiple toilets, so I will never be waiting to go wee. The kitchen is big, which is good. I like big kitchens. Maybe I could learn to bake pumpkin scones. Bus stops are pretty close, which is a bonus. And the view is pretty sweet. You can see the ocean. 

I'm not going to miss this place one bit. I will miss free buses, and being able to walk to my mums. 

Rockcakes

omnomnomnom

So yummy and so easy to make!!! Deffinatly want to make them again.

I started work experience today. I've previously done work experience, when I was 15 and in high school, and it was in hospitality, so a week in the kitchen of a cafe. But now I'm doing work experience again. 2 weeks in a recording studio. I want more skills in life, and this is giving me some skills I want. And it's getting me out of the house for two weeks.

Speaking of the house, there is a new occupant. I don't know her, but I don't really like her already. When I first got home today, she walked out, said something (I'm not even sure if it was in english) and then walked back into her room. When I was sitting in the loungeroom with Ally, watching tv and eating dinner, she walked out of the bathroom and waved. I don't even know her name. Weird as, if you ask me. Every single share house I've lived in, I've known everyones name. Now I don't. I kind of feel like a stranger in my own house. Which does not sit well with me at all.

no more medications

I got taken off my meds on Tuesday. My kidney functions were worrying my psychiatrist, so she has taken me off my medications for three weeks till I see her next. In the meantime, I have to do a urine sample, to see if there is anything wrong with my kidneys thats causing the abnormal functions that are showing up on my blood tests. I haven't not had medication since I was 12. I don't really know what to think. I'm a little scared. I think I will just stay in my room as much as I can, and try not to socialise. I don't know. I guess I'm finding it a little overwhelming.
I also have to fill out a sleep diary for two weeks, and to wear an actigraph, which is a watch like device that records movement, my sleeping patterns and the amount of activity I do during the day. Today is going to be boring. I felt really sick last night, so I'm not really doing much today. Just laying in bed. Tomorrow will be more exciting. Then I plan to spend the weekend at my mums.

no passenger

no parasite

i'm losing all my energy

at least i can still cook

sometimes i think i am invisible

but i will re-appear when i'm good and ready