If anything, I think the girl I called my best friend was more of the wrong crowd. And now she is seen as an important business women, and is in the local paper, calls herself some kind of feminist. I think she is a hypocrite. She is a stereotyping hypocrite, and if people knew her secrets...
She was the girl, who at 17, was calling male prostitutes, and meeting up with them for sex. In public places. Anal sex aswell. I would often get messages from her, asking that if her mum called my place, she was there, but just in the bathroom - she wasn't at my place - she off fucking one of her boyfriends. This happened multiple times.
Just recently she was in the paper with three other business women from the area, who came with 10 ideas/solutions for making someone/something a better person/thing. One of them was not stereotype. I told this friend I wanted to take up pole dancing. She then proceeded to tell me she would stop talking to me if I started pole dancing, and gave me some lecture that pole dancing is just a form prostitution and its only done to turn men. Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't that stereotyping? (What's next? Someone is going to tell me ballet is only for anorexics?)
This is the same girl who had a go me, after walking past the lingerie section of Myer and said "oh, I really love that bra" (a really gorgeous floral/lace trimmed Elle Macpherson bra), saying that lingerie is only worn to men on/I shouldn't be wearing lingerie like that as it will make men think I want them to have sex with me - or something like that. Women can't wear something nice and beautiful to make themselves feel good? Not everything a woman wears is just for men. I wear underwear like that because I like it. If guys don't like my underwear, I couldn't give a fuck, as I wear what I think looks good, and if it's comfy, even better (I probably don't like the underwear men are wearing, but who cares?).
This girl was the bad influence on me. This girl put so much shit on me, and I only see it now. I hold so many of her secrets, she wanted me to lie to her mum for her, she was quite the raging slut in high school, constantly calling me after breaking up with boyfriends - asking for advice - not listening to a single thing I said, and getting back with the boyfriend a few days later, only to call me again a few months later, asking for the same advice, this which went on for five years till I finally lost it and told her she was an idiot and that he is an idiot, something about him being "suicidal", something about her "having to save his life". Seriously. WTF???
(Im not saying anything bad about anyone being suicidal - but I know the entire story - it was an over-emotional ex-boyfriend trying to get back with his ex-girlfriend after promising he was moving far away as he never wanted to see her face again. If I never wanted to see my ex-boyfriends face again, he would NOT be the first person I call if I were suicidal - even he were a psychiatrist.)
There's also two other girls, which we all hung out in a group after high school - these other two girls are just are bad. So fucking ignorant. Apparently its cool to tell someone, repeatedly, to put themselves in a situation where they know they will have a panic attack. After I had stated, repeatedly "if I do that, I'm going to have a panic attack and I don't want to give myself a panic." She didn't care. Has she ever had a panic attack? No. Does she know what a panic attack feels like? No. It feels like you are going to die. Every single time. The feeling of death is not a good one, and not a feeling I want to give myself.
I never thought I would hate another single person as much as I hate my father. The day has come. And it's not one person, but three. Three ignorant, selfish, mean, rude, threatening, hypocritical, lying, judgemental bitches. I hope I never have to see any of their faces again.
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