what is forever?

I wish I could record my thoughts. In my head, I seem to say everything so right, yet when it comes the time, I can't get anything out the right way. 

I forget half the things I want to say. I can't seem to say things in order. I come up with new things on the spot, that are sometimes out of line, and therefore, don't make any sense.

If I could just somehow record my thoughts, maybe I could speak clearer, and actually be heard in the way I want to be heard.

But that never happens and no one ever listens to me and I can never say the things I want to say in the way I want to say them.